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Monday Madness (publication #19)

Happy Monday fellow readers and welcome to another publication of Monday Madness. No major madness in the works this week, and I am actually excited as I have a short week this week as far as my normal job goes. So I will have a few busy days followed by a long weekend with more work but it is the work I enjoy. I don’t have any major party plans for the 4th of July holiday, but I do plan to relax and enjoy de-stressing as much as possible.

So last week I attempted my first longer duration fast. The goal was to reach 72 hours (3 days). I was really focused and thought it would be a walk in the park. Well it was not! I ended up making it 48 hours and then I chose to stop and have some food. I just felt off and that I wasn’t in a good head space to continue on. I was consuming my water and my electrolytes but I was not experiencing the boosts of energy that everyone else in the fasting challenge. While I am disappointed that I didn’t make it, I am proud of what I did accomplish. I will attempt a longer fast again at some point and while I may not make it 72 hours anytime soon I am more confident in my abilities. I don’t know if I lost any weight as that was not the point of doing the challenge.

I had an amazing day fishing at the lake with my husband and both my daughters this weekend. We really didn’t catch much but the time together was priceless. I have always found peace when I am near the water. So if anything it is one day I had that my stress was not through the roof and I got a chance to forget about all my problems. I also got some much needed grounding and vitamin D from the source. I hope I have opportunities in the future to have more days like this.

I also learned last week that I am spending way too much time obsessing how to perfect my keto/carnivore lifestyle. I need to stop that and just get back to what I know and what was working for me. I think I do better with stability and less experimentation. I’m not saying I won’t be partaking in future experiments, all I am in saying is I need to step back a little and focus on what works for me and make it happen. I am 1/2 way through 2019 and now it is time to focus and make the most of the next 6 months.

I plan on also upping my research on the APOE 4 gene. I have this gene and I am learning what impacts it has on my cholesterol as well as looking into the impact that gene can have on an individual developing Alzheimer. These are both things that are important to me on my path of achieving better mental health. I really want to figure out how to improve that even more so than dropping the weight I have left to remove. In my opinion the better my mental health becomes the quicker my weight removal will resolve itself.

I am hoping to bring you more topics this week as I am actually on top of my game and feel that I can give you the content you need this week. I don’t have any crazy experiments in line for this week. Just focusing on me and enjoying life. Until next time…What’s Your Confession?

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I’m Only Human

Happy Thursday fellow readers. I hope everyone has been having a wonderful week. I unfortunately have let my madness consume me this week. Which brings me to today’s topic. I am only human.

When I write to my readers I want to be able to give you 100% of my attention and make sure that the words I am sharing with you are coming from not only my heart but also from my knowledge base, and this week I could not offer that to you. So I chose to be away a couple days and work on my head space. Sometimes life just grabs you and decides to throw you for a few loops, and those loops may be fun and exciting or plain out frightening. In my case this week it has been a jumble of the two. I have some exciting things coming, but I can’t quite share yet. I’ve also had a lot of stressful and bad things going on as well. All of that all at once and my body feels like I have been in a blender for a few days.

I am proud to say that for the first time in a very long time I did not turn to food to find comfort. Generally I would have dove off the deep end and binged until I was miserable. Instead I took on a fasting challenge and I stuck to it. I also didn’t veer from my keto/carnivore food items. I am glad I stuck to my guns on this because as much as stress is a trigger for a binge for me I know that in the end it just makes me feel even worse in the long run. Then I end up feeling guilty and wanting to punish myself. So this time around I get a pat on the back for being strong.

With everything that was going on and the toll it took on my body I haven’t even had an opportunity to take in a yoga class. This actually makes me sad as I was finding my way into something that my body was loving and it was opening up to thinking more deeply and more clearly. So I plan to get back on that horse as soon as possible. I feel that the further I dive into my yoga experience the more open I will be and the more I will be better equipped to handle weeks like these.

This week has also been a testament to how important it is to surround yourself by positivity as much as you can. I don’t have a close circle of friends that I can turn to always for support, so by seeing others successes I am able to use that as a fuel to realize that my struggle is temporary and there is a bright light at the other side. I just have to keep pushing toward that and never give up. I will never get were I want to be if I give up.

So I ask you all to forgive me for my absence and know that I have new material up and coming. Sometimes we just need a break to be human and I needed that this week. I needed to be vulnerable and deal with my head space so that I could come back and give you all 100% of what you deserve. So until next time …. What’s your confession?

Monday Madness (publication #18)

Good Morning fellow readers and welcome to another publication of Monday Madness. For once I don’t have too much going on Monday morning, but this could be the classic situation of the calm before the storm. I hope everyone had an amazing week last week and that this week is even more amazing! So let’s get to it.

I continued my journey into the world of yoga last week. We ended up taking two more classes. We did an Ashtanga class and then a Yin class. Both are very different from each other and I enjoyed both. Ashtanga was way more challenging and much more active as to where Yin was very relaxing and I got the opportunity to open up my body and expand my flexibility. The Yin class also helped relieve some of the soreness I was experiencing from the Ashtanga class. I also learned that during the Yin class I need to start focusing on ways to get my mind to slow down. It was racing all over the place and I struggled to focus and ground myself. I without a doubt see us continuing on our path with yoga.

I allowed stress to dominate my life last week. I let every little thing get into my head and consume me. I am 100% sure my cortisol was completely out of whack. I let it consume me so much that I couldn’t even sleep. I was averaging 3-4 hours most nights as opposed to my accustomed 7-8. It really had a huge negative impact on everything in and around my life. The sad part of this was most of what had me stressed was completely out of my control. I chose to let it control me instead of me controlling it. I continue on my path of discovering things that will help me focus on more positive things, ground myself and relieve my stress. So much negativity with no positive counter was so detrimental to my health last week and I am still feeling the effects this week.

I also allowed myself more keto type treats last week than I ever would I have. I searched for solace in food. This is typical for me and and a pattern of my binge eating history. Like someone if I eat something that is not perfect I am hurting those who are hurting me, but I know in my heart that I am actually only hurting myself and hindering my progress. Self awareness is the first step in my opinion to figure out how to solve or change any issues. I’m getting a little help with that this week as I decided to participate in a 72 hour fast sponsored by Redmond’s Real Salt. I started last night and will fast until at least Wednesday night but may end up pushing into Thursday morning. During my fast I intend to reflect on my food triggers and what I need to do to keep them out of my life. I also plan to refocus what I am fueling my body with and decide what is best for me to achieve my goals and feel optimal.

Last week I also ordered a copy of Keto for Women by Leanne Vogel. So I plan on diving in this week and seeing what she has to say. I plan on blogging a review once I have covered the material thoroughly so stay tuned for that.

All and all that is about all I have been up to. I look forward to sharing some exciting topics this week with everyone, and this Sunday will also be my monthly weigh and measure so I will be sharing those results next week. Until next time…What’s Your Confession?

Binge Eating

Happy Tuesday fellow readers. I hope everyone is making the most of their week. I wanted to talk today about something that has effected me for many years of my life, and I still struggle with today, binge eating. Binge eating is something that can take a huge toll on the person suffering through it and there are also many levels of what binge eating can be, not all binging is the same.

First off I have to state in advance that any information shared in this blog is solely of my opinion. I am not a medical doctor and I am not offering any medical advice. I highly suggest that if you feel you are suffering from any type of binge disorder you speak with your medical doctor or a trained psychologist/therapist.

According to dictionary.com binge has the following definition:
(noun) a period or bout, usually brief, of excessive indulgence, as in eating, drinking alcoholic beverages,etc.; spree. In that definition alone you can see the variance of what a binge can be. It is often even used in common day slang as referring to watching an entire TV season in one sitting. Many forms of binging often are harmful to one’s mental and physical health. Often times individuals who partake in binge eating also become bulimic, and have to purge the food they binged. I am very blessed to not have that severe of a form of binge eating, and I will not be talking about that here in detail as I don’t have experience or knowledge in that.

My problem with binge eating is quite simple, yet very difficult to overcome. My binge eating consists of eating and eating, usually a specific food, until I am literally nausea’s from eating it. Then I feel horrible and spiral into a depressive cycle trying to correct my previous actions usually by sever dieting as a punishment. In the past my binges were solely junk food driven. If it was a cookie, a cake, a lunch treat, etc I would find a way to sneak it, and one was never enough. There are days that I can say I consumed around 5-6 little debbie’s (snack cakes) on top of all my other snacks and food. It was my guilty pleasure and I hid it from everyone. A trigger for me to set off on a binge is strictly emotionally stress driven. One bad thing could happen in my life and I would spiral into the darkness and in turn I would punish my body. Then after I punished it I would turn around and not eat for a day or maybe 2 or if I did eat I would limit my calories. It was a never ending cycle for me at least until I found proper support and keto.

Ironically enough keto saved me from the junk food binges, but not binges in their entirety. My husband stood by my side and I went through 7-10 days of pure hell. Sugar withdrawal is one of the worst things I have ever been through in my life. I was mentally drained, physically sick, migraines for days, and at one point I was sure I was going to fail. Then day after day it got easier to tolerate and within 2 weeks no more withdrawal, but cravings took months to kick. Keto forced me to be accountable and track what I was eating and because my husband was on my journey with me we shared that tracking. So I was less prone to binge, but I did have the urges. After about three months into my journey the urges became stronger and I found myself reverting to my old binge ways. The difference now was it wasn’t sugar it was whole foods but in a quantity that no human needs to consume in one day, let alone one who is trying to lose weight and better her health.

To this day even though my health has improved, I’ve lost 75 pounds, and my mental health is improving I still struggle. I just recently had to deal with some things with my ex-husband and the stress overload triggered past memories and events and led me to go onto a two day binge where all I did was eat anything and everything I could sneak. All of it was keto friendly and I am still sugar free, but the quantity that I ate was not healthy and I knew I was eating past the point of being full. Then I turned around and punished myself with an extended fast. I fast often but this fast was for all the wrong reasons.

As you can see it is a constant struggle for me and I know it more than likely always will be. The difference is I can admit that I have a problem, and I know what triggers that problem. I still need to work on how to prevent that trigger from taking control. Keto is leading me in all the right directions, but support is also key. Sometimes having that person that understands and can tell you no makes a huge difference.

I encourage those who have binging issues no matter how big they are to reach out and talk to someone. Find the support you need and don’t be afraid to share. Also reach out to the national eating disorder association they have great resources and helplines. The first step to getting any help is admitting you have a problem. Until next time….Keep Ketoing On!

Monday Madness (publication #12)

Welcome to another addition of Monday Madness! I hope everyone had a great weekend and your Monday isn’t too crazy. In typical fashion mine is crazy! I’m fairly certain if I ever had a Monday that wasn’t crazy I would think something was wrong. I did have a fairly nice weekend though so that was a plus to kick off this crazy day.

Exciting news for me from the weekend. I took a bold step and got a new summer hair cut and color. I feel like a new women ready to take on the world. I decided to go super short for the summer so things will be easy to manage and that southern Chattanooga heat won’t get to me as much. I also decided to finally buy some flowers for our house. I do not have a green thumb but I do like flowers. So we planted three rose bushes in front of our house. I can’t wait for them to start growing and blooming so I can share some photos with you. We also spent some time at our local market this weekend. I always enjoy seeing all the local vendors and it’s a great way to get in some steps for the day.

Not much has changed in my Keto world. I did sort of fall of the wagon the last couple days, but not like most people do when they say that. I did not consume anything that was carb loaded or a “cheat meal”, but I way over consumed my normal amount of protein and I definitely ate more than what my hunger was. So why did I do that? Stress eating has always been a struggle of mine, as well as binge eating. I let both of those things take a hold of me this week, and I am very disappointed that I let it happen. I let negativity and stress of my life completely take over my body and my routine. So how do I fix it? I simply have to re-focus and re-set. So today I am doing an extended fast to get myself back on track and show myself that food does not control me, I control me! I plan to go at least 24 but ultimately would like to make it to 40. I just want to really focus in on my body and listen to it so we shall see how far I make it. May be less or may be more. Check back later this week on my blog for topics about binge and stress eating.

I did have something quite phenomenal happen this week which reassured me that eating a more carnivore heavy lifestyle is the way for me to be eating. For the first time in 25 years I did not get a hormonal migraine during my monthly cycle. My last two cycles have also been shorter in duration and I have had to take no medication to assist with cramping. This is huge for me as I suffer from endometriosis and functioning during my cycles has always been a challenge. Other than a few chocolate cravings though they have been improved ten fold. As for the craving part most of the time I find it easier just to give in and allow myself some dark chocolate. This also excites me to have an opportunity to see what else eating meat heals in my body.

I hope that everyone has an amazing week. Take some time for yourself and reflect on all the positive vibes you can. Until next time…Keep Ketoing On!

Monday Madness (publication #8)

Good Monday afternoon fellow readers! I hope everyone had a chance to get a little de-stressing in over the weekend. My Monday is already off to a crazy start and I am in hopes that it isn’t a clue as to how the rest of my week is going to go. I woke up feeling very ran down and tired this morning which is not a good way for me to start any day let alone a Monday. Pollen counts are horrible in Chattanooga and everything is yellow. So I continue to struggle with my allergies, but doing my best to keep trucking along.

So last week I started my day fasting experiment. It was actually more challenging than I thought it would be, but I was successful 6 out of the 7 days. On Thursday I found myself to be more hungry than I had been all week, and I am 90% sure it was do to my hormones and monthly cycle. So rather than fight the feeling of hunger I gave my body what it needed and enjoyed a second meal for the day. My body thanked me and I felt amazing afterwards. It is so important to realize what your body needs and when it needs it. I fast because I enjoy the benefits but I also listen to my body and if I can’t I simply don’t. With the exception of that one day I managed to basically eat OMAD (one meal a day) and stayed within my macros.

I haven’t noticed a specific change in my sleep patterns with this yet, but I do notice I have a little more energy in the later evening hours. I do find that I get a little tired about an hour after I eat my one meal, but I am sure it is because my body is working hard to digest that one meal. As far as body changes, I did drop 2.4 pounds this week and also lost a total of 2″ off my body. So I found that to be quite a beneficial side effect. I also added in some weights for my arms and I’m surprised that for the first time ever I have no pain following the program I am following and I am attributing that to the amount of protein that I am consuming and that body has what it needs to repair itself on the rest days. No significant results as of yet with the weights but hey Rome wasn’t built in a day and my bat wings aren’t going away in a day either.

I took on the challenge this weekend of attempting to make my own pecan nut butter. Results….OMG this stuff is amazing! I can’t wait to try it. I don’t consume nut butter everyday, but on occasion I allow myself a tablespoon as a treat, and it keeps my carbs in check as well as I am still staying under 10 total carbs a day. I haven’t felt the need to add in any veggies other than some pickles. So I may have a few pickle chips each day, but 95% of my diet is still carnivore based. That is what my body wants so that is what I am giving it. I absolutely love that food doesn’t control my life anymore and that I don’t spend so much time worrying about what to fix.

This week will be plain and simple. I am going to keep going with my OMAD and daily fasting and see how it goes. I will also continue my arm weights this week I will increase my reps by two more per set. I am also looking to start incorporating some yoga into my life a couple days a week. If anyone ever has any questions, wants to chat, needs advice/coaching or anything else please don’t hesitate to reach out. You can also find me on Instagram at @charming.confessions. Until next time Keep Ketoing On!

Monday Madness (publication #7)

Monday MadnessGood Monday Morning! I hope everyone had an amazing weekend and is looking forward to a great week! I am jumping into April full force, and have decided to refocus and re-center myself. I will be kicking off today by starting my all new experiment that I announced last week. So with that in mind let me tell you a little bit about last week and then a quick look ahead for this week.

I normally don’t weigh or measure except once a month as it stresses me out and depresses me when I don’t see a result that I want to. I did jump back on the scale this weekend though so I would have numbers to start my experiment with. I did not lose any weight in a week but I did lose 3 inches, so I will consider that a success. During the upcoming challenge I will be weighing and measuring weekly to share my results with you.

I finished up my carnivore experiment last week. While I didn’t see major weight loss changes I did see an overall improvement in sleep and energy which is more important to me than actual weight loss. So this weekend I incorporated a few keto items in my diet and lucky me I had no bad effects from it. That will all change this week with my new experiment. Even though I may be adding in some Keto things I still plan to stay away from heavy amounts of dairy, sweeteners, and any type of nuts/nut flours. I am doing this because I feel at my best when I don’t have those things in my body. They are completely allowed and do-able on Keto though.

Other things from last week was I was fighting some vicious allergies still. Chattanooga and pollen are horrible this time of year. So I have been on a combo of allergy meds to be able to function and didn’t have a voice most of the week. I also managed to get bit by a spider…which is ironic because I absolutely hate spiders. So I am also on a week-long course of antibiotics to prevent infection. So for me I am hoping this week is a little better and stronger in the health area of my life. I also made another batch of Ghee over the weekend and even though it takes forever the reward is so worth it…Liquid Gold!

So what is coming up this week with my new experiment! The goal of the experiment is to see if eating earlier in my day and fasting a little longer, as well as tracking my macros again will make a difference. I am looking for results in fat loss, body mass, and increase in sleep patterns as a result of this. I will also be starting to add in some dumbbell workouts to start working on the bat wings on my arms. Which terrifies me as I have not much knowledge when it comes to weights. I plan to take it slow and see where it goes.  I will be providing weekly updates as well as some video commentary on my Instagram account as well. If you want to follow me on Instagram you can find me @charming.confessions.

As far as what I will be eating, I will be doing more of a Keto Carnivore method now. So I will be staying below 10 total carbs a day and focusing on meeting my fat and protein macros. I will be doing 75% fat and 20% protein for the first week. Today will be day number 1 and I actually have planned out a day of zero carbs and only fat and protein, and I plan on not eating after 1 PM today.

I’m very excited to see what comes from this experiment and see if it works better for me than other things I have tried. I really just want to try to keep things as simple as possible and focus on basics. Until next time Keep Ketoing On!