I’m Only Human

Happy Thursday fellow readers. I hope everyone has been having a wonderful week. I unfortunately have let my madness consume me this week. Which brings me to today’s topic. I am only human.

When I write to my readers I want to be able to give you 100% of my attention and make sure that the words I am sharing with you are coming from not only my heart but also from my knowledge base, and this week I could not offer that to you. So I chose to be away a couple days and work on my head space. Sometimes life just grabs you and decides to throw you for a few loops, and those loops may be fun and exciting or plain out frightening. In my case this week it has been a jumble of the two. I have some exciting things coming, but I can’t quite share yet. I’ve also had a lot of stressful and bad things going on as well. All of that all at once and my body feels like I have been in a blender for a few days.

I am proud to say that for the first time in a very long time I did not turn to food to find comfort. Generally I would have dove off the deep end and binged until I was miserable. Instead I took on a fasting challenge and I stuck to it. I also didn’t veer from my keto/carnivore food items. I am glad I stuck to my guns on this because as much as stress is a trigger for a binge for me I know that in the end it just makes me feel even worse in the long run. Then I end up feeling guilty and wanting to punish myself. So this time around I get a pat on the back for being strong.

With everything that was going on and the toll it took on my body I haven’t even had an opportunity to take in a yoga class. This actually makes me sad as I was finding my way into something that my body was loving and it was opening up to thinking more deeply and more clearly. So I plan to get back on that horse as soon as possible. I feel that the further I dive into my yoga experience the more open I will be and the more I will be better equipped to handle weeks like these.

This week has also been a testament to how important it is to surround yourself by positivity as much as you can. I don’t have a close circle of friends that I can turn to always for support, so by seeing others successes I am able to use that as a fuel to realize that my struggle is temporary and there is a bright light at the other side. I just have to keep pushing toward that and never give up. I will never get were I want to be if I give up.

So I ask you all to forgive me for my absence and know that I have new material up and coming. Sometimes we just need a break to be human and I needed that this week. I needed to be vulnerable and deal with my head space so that I could come back and give you all 100% of what you deserve. So until next time …. What’s your confession?


Monday Madness (publication #18)

Good Morning fellow readers and welcome to another publication of Monday Madness. For once I don’t have too much going on Monday morning, but this could be the classic situation of the calm before the storm. I hope everyone had an amazing week last week and that this week is even more amazing! So let’s get to it.

I continued my journey into the world of yoga last week. We ended up taking two more classes. We did an Ashtanga class and then a Yin class. Both are very different from each other and I enjoyed both. Ashtanga was way more challenging and much more active as to where Yin was very relaxing and I got the opportunity to open up my body and expand my flexibility. The Yin class also helped relieve some of the soreness I was experiencing from the Ashtanga class. I also learned that during the Yin class I need to start focusing on ways to get my mind to slow down. It was racing all over the place and I struggled to focus and ground myself. I without a doubt see us continuing on our path with yoga.

I allowed stress to dominate my life last week. I let every little thing get into my head and consume me. I am 100% sure my cortisol was completely out of whack. I let it consume me so much that I couldn’t even sleep. I was averaging 3-4 hours most nights as opposed to my accustomed 7-8. It really had a huge negative impact on everything in and around my life. The sad part of this was most of what had me stressed was completely out of my control. I chose to let it control me instead of me controlling it. I continue on my path of discovering things that will help me focus on more positive things, ground myself and relieve my stress. So much negativity with no positive counter was so detrimental to my health last week and I am still feeling the effects this week.

I also allowed myself more keto type treats last week than I ever would I have. I searched for solace in food. This is typical for me and and a pattern of my binge eating history. Like someone if I eat something that is not perfect I am hurting those who are hurting me, but I know in my heart that I am actually only hurting myself and hindering my progress. Self awareness is the first step in my opinion to figure out how to solve or change any issues. I’m getting a little help with that this week as I decided to participate in a 72 hour fast sponsored by Redmond’s Real Salt. I started last night and will fast until at least Wednesday night but may end up pushing into Thursday morning. During my fast I intend to reflect on my food triggers and what I need to do to keep them out of my life. I also plan to refocus what I am fueling my body with and decide what is best for me to achieve my goals and feel optimal.

Last week I also ordered a copy of Keto for Women by Leanne Vogel. So I plan on diving in this week and seeing what she has to say. I plan on blogging a review once I have covered the material thoroughly so stay tuned for that.

All and all that is about all I have been up to. I look forward to sharing some exciting topics this week with everyone, and this Sunday will also be my monthly weigh and measure so I will be sharing those results next week. Until next time…What’s Your Confession?

I’m Not Losing Weight!

Stupid Scale!

Happy Wednesday fellow readers! I hope everyone has had a great week so far, and you continue marching through your week with your head held high and the positivity flowing. Today I wanted to discuss something I hear all the time. So many people get stuck on the fact that a box on the floor is giving you a number and that number is not changing.

First and foremost Keto is NOT a weight loss diet! Keto is a low carb, high fat diet that reduces inflammation. A side effect for many people who do Keto is weight loss. That is not the case for every single person that follow the ketogenic lifestyle and that side effect is different for every single person. There are numerous medical conditions and environmental factors that will heavily influence how fast weight will drop if it drops at all. On the other side of it if you are already at your ideal body weight Keto isn’t going to make you shrink away to nothing, but it is going to help tone up and give you a ton of other benefits.

Secondly, the scale is the cruelest pieces of equipment you can ever own. It lies! I have seen that scale tell me for weeks I have lost no weight or maybe even gained a little….here is the problem with that. You are possibly losing inches or building muscle. Muscle weighs more than fat so you can lose five pounds of fat and still gain weight because you put on 7 pounds of muscle, which means the scale is going to say you gained 2 pounds. It is so important while on your journey to take pictures and do measurements! Those pictures and those measurements will show you more progress than that scale ever will.

Third, are you tracking what your eating and are you being honest with what you are eating? Start looking at everything your putting in your body. Decide if it is the best choice for you or if you think it is negatively influencing your progress. If you have to do a few days of an elimination diet. For example if you go one whole week with no heavy whipping cream and you feel better and your inflammation is reduced and all of sudden the scale dropped a pound, you may need to consider eliminating heavy whipping cream from your diet. Ask yourself if your eating whole foods that are healthy or foods that have ingredient lists that are a mile long. Are you counting net carbs or total carbs? Spend a few days tracking everything you eat and drink and when you do it and then start dissecting it to see where you could improve.

Fourth, you are 100% positive that you are doing everything right and your not seeing results. Talk to your health care provider! You may have some underlying issue that is hindering your progress. There are certain medical diagnosis and certain medications that can make your body fight weight loss. Now if you are not overweight and the scale is not moving and your doing everything right…..maybe you don’t need to lose the weight and your body is telling you I’m good right where I am at!

Fifth, no matter what the circumstance is for your weight not dropping do NOT let it frustrate you. You didn’t gain it in a day your not going to lose it in a day. STOP comparing your losses to others, your body is yours and can not be compared to anyone else. Keto in time will help you reach your bodies ideal weight, but it needs time to heal the damage that is already there. I promise outside of a side effect of weight loss Keto will bring far better benefits to your life. Energy, mental clarity, better focus, reduction in medication, and an overall community that will love and support you on your journey. Don’t let a useless box that gives you a random number control you and keep you from all the benefits, and until next time Keep Ketoing On!

234 Days and Counting

Patience is also a form of action.

Auguste Rodin

234 days, what does that equate to 7 months and 20 days. For 234 days I have been on a journey of self discovery and better health, and my journey is far from over. In May of 2018 I found myself spending more and more time in my bedroom, and less and less time living. I was on numerous prescription medications and weighed the most I have ever weighed. Let me tell you 266 pounds on a 5’4″ frame is not very healthy or flattering.  To put it the best way I can remember was my everything hurt and my health was declining and not improving. I was so sick of fad diets and losing 10 and then gaining back 20 so I turned to my new health care provider for options. In all honesty I was just hoping for a pill or some quick fix, but now I’m glad that was not her solution. Here first solution was to introduce me to the Flexitarian diet. A diet based on eating more vegetables and minimal meat. When I started the plan it was working great but after 15 pounds disappeared so did any signs of additional weight loss. So she then recommended I look toward fasting. So I ordered a copy of “The Complete Guide to Fasting” by Jason Fung, MD and Jimmy Moore. Enter life changing moment! This book changed how I was looking at everything related to food and also introduced me to my beginning research into the keto lifestyle. 

So did I just jump in with both feet and succeed….ummm NO! It took weeks of research and trial and error to see what was going to work for me. I was fortunate that my husband jumped in with me and stood by my side. Without his support I am 110% sure I would have given up after the first week and went back to my sweets and junk. In addition to my husband I found numerous support groups to talk to, and most importantly I had my doctor monitoring me and supporting my choices. So after a few weeks of a whole lot of research I jumped in and began my journey. If detoxing your body is anything like detoxing from sugar, then I will never become a drug user. I went through 7-10 days of pure hell! I had chills, nausea, migraines that wouldn’t stop. I couldn’t sleep, I was irritable and I pretty much hated everything and everyone! After those 7-10 days though I woke up like I came out of a deep fog, and for the first time in months I had energy. I actually felt like a different person on the inside. That feeling continued and that journey is still marching on.

So where am I at in this journey? I am now 203 pounds, that is 63 pounds lighter than when I started, and the pounds keep dropping off. I can now do a brisk walk for 30 minutes and feel good about it. I have less knee and joint pain. I have eliminated all but one of my prescription medications, and I’m currently being slowly taken off of it. I don’t feel like I am hungry all the time, I don’t have cravings, and I find myself smiling more and enjoying life more in general. Do I think this is the solution for everyone, absolutely not! You have to find what works for you. The point of this is not to make your change your lifestyle and what you want in your life, but my hope is to inspire you that can do anything you put your mind to as long as you have patience and stay focused.  This is my journey in a nutshell, at least a little piece of it. Stay tuned for more details and moments….

It's a journey not a dead end.
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